Hello everyone. It’s been a while hasn’t it. I’m not sure why it’s taken me so long to write again but it just has. I had so many topic ideas, created myself deadlines but that on top of a million other things meant I went into another rut. Going back to work after lockdown was extremely tough to get used to, as well as the fact I also moved flats. I didn’t find the joy in writing like I used to do. It felt emotionless and pure shite. I lost all motivation and for a while things have very much been work, home, sleep, work, home, sleep. I didn’t enjoy doing anything else, I didn’t have the motivation and honestly just did not care.
Within the last week I’ve completely changed my bedroom, painting, adding furniture and moving it all around. It was a tough job to complete within six days just intime for my parents coming to visit me. My room feels cosier but bigger, its neutral and feels welcoming, relaxing and warm. I feel safer and more productive here. I actually want to sit in the room and chill out instead of on the sofa in front of the TV. Spending the weekend with my family felt amazing. Now we don’t always get along at home, but a few days together is lovely, and much needed after not being able to see each other for 9 months. I feel as if I’ve recharged my happiness up, doing things I actually enjoy instead of thinking I don’t enjoy anything. Being able to relax whilst getting out the house and being social brings so much laugher and memories into light.
That’s when I realised, these past few months I had put so much pressure onto myself, thinking of content for others, posting for others, doing it for others and not myself. That is what caused me to loss all my motivation and dislike it. Because I was doing it for other people, and I wasn’t doing it for myself. This goes for everything lately, not just my blog. I need to do things for myself, and not seeing it as a chore and that I am doing it for someone else. Obviously, there are things we all have to do for someone else that we don’t particularly want to do, but sometimes even those things end up with a happy ending. All I’m saying is, do things that please you, when they please you. Focus on your own happiness and it will guide others to their happiness.
Welcome to September, let’s make it a good month.
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